Oh what a night.

That boy, the one who carries STDs in a napsack behind him? Turns out to be kinda cool. I know, I’m the kid who once you’re nice to me I’m you’re BFF.
I walked into the party, said hello to everyone, including STD boy, and surprisingly, there was no tention. We talked, laughed, [...]

On staying away from STDs.

Remember that one Sex and the City episode where Carrie says she’s solved the mystery of getting a date? Which is another date? I think it’s ture. Because since I’ve dated Ryan, I immediately moved onto Justin, then, now, I met another boy. Maybe the last couple of years of meeting [...]

Letter to blank

Dear [blank],
I can’t stop think about you. And, honestly, I’m so embarrassed about it. Why? I only knew you a few weeks. But, really, I know why.
It was the way you took my hand unexpectedly into yours and kissed it. The whole time you were looking at me, not once [...]

Poof! My ass is amazing.

I’m sure you own a pair of jeans that make you feel the hottest you’ve felt in weeks. When you put them on, even if your hair isn’t quite working for you, you’re ass still looks amazing.
The night before you wear them you think about them and what shirt to wear, which [...]

He’s just not that into you.

I’ve figured out why I still think about Justin. STILL! Like almost a week after I’ve moved home!
It’s because… drumroll!… He’s the first person who I’ve liked that hasn’t liked me back. All the boys who I’ve had a thing with showed some interest first and they made all the moves. [...]

Election.

Maybe it’s because I can vote now, but this upcoming presidential election is affecting me in more ways than I thought it would. I’ve been reading the news and keeping updated on changes in the media more than I normally would, which is quite a lot because I already read the news every morning [...]

Missing.

I walked behind you with her, your girlfriend. You are beautiful together, you are together because you want to be. You hold her hand and she grips it tightly. Every now and then there is a lovingly push or hit on the arm. I wish someone would hit me that way.
It’s [...]

Ugh.

“Wasted Wednesday” is before “Thirsty Thursday” and believe you me, I feel like an alcoholic.
Well not so much because “wasted Wednesday” was a sober day pour moi, sobering me up on the Justin situation. And the next day only confirmed it.
I, after two or three glasses of whatever, become incredibly [...]

Wasted Wednesday. (As in ‘what a waste.’)

Are you ready for a breakdown? Cause here comes a big one.
I thought Justin and I were actually dating. How could I? We never even kissed once. We shared a bed together because I thought that’s what couples did. But the real reason was because all the other beds were [...]

Confusion.

I don’t usually press for a boy to like me. I’m usually the passive one who sits back and let’s the relationship just happen. And usually it works out for me. But with Justin, if there will be anything, I think I have to be the aggressive one, the pusher. In [...]

Mostly I feel silly.

I guess the whole “he-likes-me-I-Like-him” was in my head. As of right now anyway. What does it mean when a guy asks you and your friend to dinner and your friend isn’t available so the guy decided not to go?! Seriously?! And the thing is I know he doesn’t like Best [...]

Questions and Insecurities.

The other night Justin said, “I don’t share a bed with boys unless I’m dating them.” We were in the same bed when he said that. So I said, “Does this mean we’re dating?” He said, “Yep.”
Now, what does dating mean exactly. Because I say that word because I don’t like [...]

The bases of my insanities.

I’ve been sorta screwed by boys in the past. Well actually, one in particular. His name was Leo and he was go gorgeous. I was a freshmen and I just moved to a new school. I was away from my friends, from everything I knew. It was so hard for [...]

Oh Boy. ;)

I don’t usually let myself like a person this early. It’s scary, me liking him so early. He’s cute and he makes me laugh out loud and he has a super cute body. Ugh. I like him.
I don’t like to like boys so early because in the first few days [...]

Boy.

I met a boy named Justin. He’s cute and I think I’m interested.
Here goes another ride.
Le sigh.
And P.S. HOLY CRAP! IT’S ALREADY MAY!
Happy May Day.